Note: I am a white person speaking to white people. This piece was written originally after the murder of Ahmaud Arbery. Until the senseless murders of Black people stop, this will still be relevant. Share as you wish. I’m spinning in circles today. Another Black person was lynched. My mourning clothes feel too comfortable. Everything…

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The past few days have been a whirlwind. The Coronavirus is sweeping through our communities like a silent thief. Endangering our most vulnerable. After finishing with one of our cohorts two nights ago, I made my routine call home to say I was on my way and Jomo shared that the NBA had shut down.…

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White people are socialized for weakness. It took me a long time to see this and I spent years misidentifying it. This socialization starts in childhood. It sounds like “we don’t talk about that”, “you ask too many questions”, “stop crying”, “there is no race except the human race”. The underlying messages are that there…

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The Challenge My amazing business coach invited us to a 5-day Share The Love Challenge. This was perfect timing as I’ve been working on a series of posts that will highlight a list of resources that have helped my understanding about race EMERGE. Come check out the first post in the Emerge Series for more…

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The Challenge My amazing business coach invited us to a 5-day Share The Love Challenge. This was perfect timing as I’ve been working on a series of posts that will highlight a list of resources that have helped my understanding about race EMERGE. Come check out the first post in the Emerge Series for more…

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The Challenge My amazing business coach invited us to a 5-day Share The Love Challenge. This was perfect timing as I’ve been working on a series of posts that will highlight a list of resources that have helped my understanding about race EMERGE. When I was 30, I studied to become a labor doula. I…

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Pacific Educational Group defines dysconsciousness as when I don’t know, but I think I do. When I was a young child, I was misidentified as a Native person by my classmates and they excluded me from group activities because they thought I was Native. At the time, my favorite way of wearing my hair was…

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You’ve never known us to hold back. So I’m going to be bold. I’m doing this because I know this struggle intimately. It comes in the form of barriers that sound like… I don’t have energy or time I can’t afford it I won’t be able to make a difference I worried y’all. Like, really…

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Sometimes we’ve got to go back to Kindergarten! At the end of our recent event series with the Alliance of White Abolitionists, we planted seeds in paper cups. All week, I’ve been watching and anticipating these little sprouts – and it’s done something to my brain…I’m eager to grow, watching for the things I’m missing,…

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Ava Duvernay’s When They See Us is incredibly important for white America to view and process. The mini-series has the potential to draw us to consider who we are in this time. It’s too easy to look back thirty years and think “I would never do that” which had me wondering whether my life exhibits…

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This page will host the public updates from an interaction I had with Portland Police Bureau which took place on June 13, 2019 around 6:15pm near Killingsworth and NE 42nd Ave. I wrote about the incident here and will keep most recent updates at the top of this thread.   10/28/19, received an email from…

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Imagine with me 2.5 years ago Pause here a moment Before reading on What is that thing That has you shackled For the last 2.5 years? Is it illness? Is it debt? Is it worry for your child? Is it depression? Is it addiction? Is it powerlessness? Is it houselessness? Is it fear? Is it…

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Black women are not a problem. Black women are not a problem. Black women are not a problem. To white people who hold power: study this graphic and commit to never, ever pushing black women out of your organization or watching it happen in your organization. Do not make decisions in isolation but rather stop…

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Yesterday I attended the Black Voices United Candidate Forum. Maranatha Church hosted this black-led space for candidates for Portland Public Schools Board to answer questions of concern from the black community. This event was organized by Nichole Watson and moderated by Sam Thompson. Michelle DePass and Shanice Clarke — you are both my sheros. I wish both…

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Here, before God, in the presence of these witnesses, from this time, I consecrate my life to the destruction of slavery!  – John Brown, 1837 Yesterday I read Kyle Korver’s self reflective piece about his emerging race consciousness. His story models the process of how white people go from centering white cultural norms to an…

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Dear America: Notes Of An Undocumented Citizen by Jose Antonio Vargas When They Call You A Terrorist: A Black Lives Matter Memoir by Patrisse Khan-Cullors I’m Still Here: Black Dignity In A World Made For Whiteness by Austin Channing Brown Survival Math: Notes On An All American Family by Mitchell S. Jackson They Called Me…

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I was a young adult when I first heard the proverb “begin with the end in sight”. With this wisdom at my fingertips, I could will myself past the discomfort of reaching for my goals. Each winter, my family would head into snow-covered woods in search of a Christmas tree. My mom would forge the…

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Again, I loudly say “I am them and they are me”. Today, the impulse of all white anti-racists will be to distance ourselves from this data. We must not do that. Surfacing our individual vote as proof positive of our “solidarity” or “good white person” status is individualism – a tenet of white dominance. We…

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To parents of white children, Do your children sit under the authority of black women? I’m not asking about your child having black friends because you moved into (let’s be real, gentrified) a neighborhood where your child could be exposed to black people. Don’t misunderstand the question because of your black family or friends who…

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White women, we need to talk…We need to talk about our addiction to speak, comment, examine, criticize, and enter spaces that are created by and for Indigenous, Black, and Brown people. We are deeply sick. Really. Admit :::: I interject myself into places that are not for me because I seek recognition for my work…

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We hugged and sat down. Sipping coffee she tells me that she can’t understand how our nation elected this guy. I felt her panic and disorientation. She was waking up to a nation she didn’t recognize. I remembered feeling so many of the same feelings years before. The only difference between us was time. White…

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White domination is personal and it is a system. Individual and interconnected. The Dismantling Racism tool Three Expressions Of Racism teaches that there are personal, institutional, and cultural forms of racism. Educating white people on the systemic nature of white domination, by examining institutional racism is necessary. The vast majority of white people have little…

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It’s been a flood lately. The barriers breached. Took some time to examine the feelings that have been coming up for me as a white person engaged in abolitionist work to end white domination. What I found was a flood. Still after all these years, I was having a hard time identifying the feelings and…

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The other day he was sharing with me how he’d rather take the longer way because the road is straight and flat which allows him to get visual feedback about how much further he has to walk. I’ve often referred to the self-work for white people to abolish white dominance in ourselves as a continuum.…

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I loved spending time as a child on my grandparent’s farm. One of my favorite trees had a thin, papery bark that would break, curl and slough off as the trunk expanded. I remember feeling a sense of sadness for this tree that never seemed to be able to just get a break from this…

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He called it the racial equity industrial complex. I was struck with the layers of truth in his statement. To create anything within the context of white dominant culture means that which is created will inherit the DNA of white dominance. I’m at fault too. She came to the learning space enveloped in her degrees…

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“Winter trees on a north coast headland That drops into Murlough bay Asking mystical questions With the serenity of their gentle sway And I’m fascinated by the mystery Did God peer down then bending Pencil sketch them in the cloak of darkness Or the distraction of the sun descending They are so skilfully shaped like…

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We’ve been talking a lot about boo boos lately. It’s summertime and she is still learning how to play with wild abandon. As a four-year-old black girl, there is a fear in her that is not something I remember ever having. I was her age when my family moved to a small town in eastern…

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I watched her walk by and was taken right back to that place when I was Parent Teacher Organization Chair and fighting a private school to make way for families of color. The student demographic was about 75% children of color, about 60%+ of which were black. Looking back, I know that my ego was…

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There is no love in upholding and perpetuating white dominant culture. One of the normed lies in the white community that to love oneself is to grab everything we can get our hands on – every opportunity, affirmation, promotion, etc. that we perceive the universe wants for us. James Baldwin wrote in The Fire Next…

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I continually struggle with taking responsibility for my participation in racism. It has been painful to admit the harm that I bring to my children, my husband and dear friends. Yet, in this I’m violating an agreement I hold to share my perspective responsibly. My perspective lands squarely as a white person which means I…

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